Category Archives: Dreams

I was trying to pick one of two concerts that would be here at the end of the month so I could buy tickets. My friend Kim was talking about the last show she’d been to and we went off on this tangent on being sick. I mentioned how I regress into a useless person when I’m this sick and can’t adult. Her son was playing a FPS on Xbox live and said it’s normal and that’s most people.

Conan O’Brien was obsessing about Ellen Degeneres and wanted to invite people on his show to discuss her. He invited Jessica who was nervous and was barely getting a word out. We ran into her in the lobby and I took her hand saying it was no problem and she’d get through this. We were walking towards the elevators when I noticed an open door to the right when we were going down the hall and saw senator McCain. When we reached the elevators Jessica picked the one on the right and it was weird. You couldn’t pick floors and there was a blue telephone. There were trays on a little table in there and it looked like you had to do a cheek culture swab and talk to someone on the phone before being granted access to any floor from this elevator.

I was with this beautiful doctor talking about trying to figure out my diagnosis and what scripts I should be taking or if I should be doing some crazy high doses of motion for a bit. She was prepping her medicine she was about to take at night since she was terminally ill and asked me to help her put something away. I helped her clean up a room and she walked into another part of the house. I walled down the steps and peeked out the window in the back door through a kitchen to see a back yard with a large pool and garden. I walked back into the living room and she was lounging in a reclined chair while her husband rested on this sofa. I sat on the sofa to check with her and he woke up and they started talking. Now she had this beautiful sari on and her makeup was different and she had these facial piercings. She was chain smoking and went outside to finish her last cigarette. I went outside to keep her company and her husband walked out to discuss business and had this huge case with coins in it. She was fed up and went back inside.

He cleared the bottom of the case after moving the coins aside like he was cleaning off some kind of powdery substance. I went inside to let her know I was leaving. This house was huge and beautiful.. I ran into the husband first and he was dressed in religious attire, white and some purple and was walking down the hall, and more people followed. There were a lot of kids that were dressed up in little suits and dresses. I told him I was leaving and he said okay, suddenly I realized a hug or a handshake would be inappropriate and started walking the opposite direction as everyone else. But aside from what I thought were bibles going to a Christian sermon, I noticed star of David’s and Torahs so I turned around and walked back to see what was happening. We went through the door to this large auditorium and went down to a stage, it looked like a church, and off to the side was a table setup with to strange food, it looked like like fake food and there was some weird green jelly looking coating on this piece of chicken that looked really off. This guy who looked like George Costanza was sitting behind the table and had a microphone clipped to his shirt and he starts telling a story. Then this clip starts playing about this girl and her little brother and how he annoyed her, the clip showed her life as she grew up.. he destroyed her things, they argued etc, there was some lesson they were gonna get at any minute now.

And this young mother standing next to me was holding her baby and kind of bouncing while standing in place, starts quietly talking to me about letting go of certain paths and pointing out things in what we were viewing now. Some awkward kid who grew up and is now a successful man and choices and not getting hung up and it started getting very butterfly effect. I walked out and then someone made a comment about Phoenix being gone and said I must have felt lucky to miss it, or must have just known since I made it out before Phoenix was destroyed, there was nothing but desert there now.

Then a good bye party, a good bye party and a last minute stop in NM for some almost LDS mission related thing she talked you into that really?! So you’re leaving LV early for that? Worst dream ever.

I was walking through this store that was advertising all 80’s  vintage stuff like a consignment store and there were a few people there. This girl in this group starts walking closer until she bumps my shoulder and then walks away while hovering for a bit. She comes back with this other guy and he says he’s seen me before. He asked what was I doing here looking all cute in a school girl uniform, like he’s seen the real me, and it’s not this extra cute. I was all whatever. A couple friends and I walked through this other part of the store, or maybe it was another store entirely?

There were a bunch of Asian snacks and I stopped when I saw green tea Pocky. I grabbed it and started to look for my group when I noticed one of my nails was broken and jagged, like a side of it was shredded off. We were going over these menus that listed what was on the shelves.. it was just a bunch of instant foods and finally I found what I’d was looking for.

We were breaking up custody of IT and you were saying something about taking the smart one and  Jimmy.  I said no and that I had Angela. Then I said fine take the men, I’ll keep the women.

We also went somewhere but it was bad and I couldn’t eat anything due to a mango allergy.

We were with a group at a couple tables and mom asked this lady about something regarding makeup since it was this lady’s job and she sells it at the bx and the lady ignored her. I was yelling amonim! Amomim! (which doesn’t even mean anything it was almost being used like agashi or ajuma). She rolled her eyes and looked at me and as soon as our eyes met I yelled mom! But the lady got up and walked away.  I was pissed off at how she was treating mom and wasn’t sure what the exclusion was for, if it was some stupid personal thing, or if it was related to some church thing.

Mom was talking about some makeup she’d gotten great deals on because of sales and cause she knew how to shop. She then made a comment about it being too bad there was no place for me to clean up and I was trying to figure out if I got food on my shirt, or if my makeup was jacked or something else… so I got up and walked out then started going up the parking garage, and the streets were excessively wide.  There was this old black pickup, it was run down and while the guy was working on it, there was this other guy who was with him, or near him, and he was playing the theme to Inspector Gadget on a steel drum. w t actual f. 

I was at a trader Joe’s grabbing some things to snack on while on this road trip across the country. I had no idea where I was going. Grabbed orange juice, fruit, baby carrots, tried a little cheese. There was a farmers market/ bazaar outside with random goods and people selling these superstitious trinkets and crystals and voodoo ish.

I was sitting with a big group lounging around and then Korean food was brought out. Some girl got up and started dealing with the mussels in the large plate and kept failing so I was gonna go help but was stuck where I was. We filled all the seats and I couldn’t get around everyone. Then I had some other dream we were driving on this dirt road and parked. We were supposed to leave the keys with the car and leave it unattended since it was getting work done. I was uncomfortable with this but had no choice so I grabbed my ipod and a couple other things from the center console. The guy took offense and I went off on how I’d rather be safe and used some analogy on house fires and stuff but I forgot what I actually said and am really curious. >_>

I can’t remember much about the dream early on… I was in a new area and the map looked really weird. Like the land and water… just the geography was super weird.  I guess I was in mom’s house and it was completely foreign to me, there were different kinds of  Korean dolls on this shelf, I remember she was mad at dad but idk why.  I left and came back later and wifey was in a lot of pain lying on her back on the floor in another room.  I asked if she needed anything, she requested sweet tea, then she amended it to nestea in the large bottles so she wouldn’t be able to make a fist while holding the bottle since her shoulder was jacked up.   When I started walking back it was dark out, and I was in a kimono, trying to remember the right street to take since it had been a long time since I’ve been in the area.   I walked into this building and a room was waiting for a presentation to start. We’re messing with this computer tower trying to get it to display on the tv on the wall and Ralph is handing me this weird sugar packet sized looking thing saying we needed it.  I asked him wtf was I supposed to do with it and where does it go, and Shane walked up behind me.

Ralph takes it and breaks it open, it looks like some herb thing that almost resembles a joint that he’s rubbing along the chassis and I made a comment that’s about as effective as… I can’t remember but I was basically saying it’s not. Then Shane said that’s not the impression Sean got from me regarding weed and then suggested him and I slept together and things got quiet, and Ralph looked at me all ..you..? And I’m thinking no we haven’t, but didn’t want to make a scene and come off as defensive so I stayed silent and just nodded my head.

I think my brain just confused Sean with Shaun.

I was sitting at a computer and all these IM windows were coming up like senpai’s account creds were in my profile and I wanted to set up a rule to mass forward all communications to him. So many people were hitting him up and there was no way I’d have the info they’d need, then I realize if I auto forwarded everything he’d get my stuff too but thought that’s not so bad.. but it would out me for screwing with settings and accidentally merging something. Then I noticed all these IMs were coming from a bunch of women and was all omfg, can I just forward them all lol… or close them because I don’t want to deal with them? They think I’m the wrong person and there are too many. Some windows were from really obvious sex bots and there was grayed out text from previous conversations it was random. Then I was dealing with this huge box of electronics and my friend Michelle from GD was moving it and we were trying to store it outside until we could transport it to the office but it slid right into a hot tub and at least it was cold and off but omfg (I wish my brain managed a Hot Tub Time Machine reference here but it failed).  So she’s knee deep in water and I’m trying to help her pull the box up. There are pallets of boxes lined up by the fence and they look like boxes of computers and everything that goes with them and their desk setups. She commented there wasn’t a way to get it all in my car but she’d help when her husband came back with her van. Then I’m sitting at a computer and this girl sits next to me and stares at my screen then the shelves above us and starts asking a bunch of questions. She notices there are a couple monitors in boxes above my desk and asks if she could have two too. I said sure reluctantly and was trying to figure out where to find them and an extra set of VGA and DVI cables, then I realized boxes had both so I could pull extras from boxes my monitors were packed in.

Then I was back with a group and we were all getting food. Samuel L Jackson was explaining some situation about a baby that had this congenital defect and would just black out when his heart stopped. He was explaining it and I think we were donating time with computer stuff or trying to do something to contribute and we were grabbing pizza from the counter. I walked up and he was all oh look wings and I grabbed a few and went to grab my backpack so I could set up and keep working on whatever project we were dealing with. I was slouching into this super cushy sofa and opening up my laptop.. this whole time I noticed there were a couple guys sitting at a table like they were there to film or take notes for a documentary or article. I kept glancing over cause it thought they were gonna throw a camera up, and if they did I was going to lift up my laptop and hide behind it.

We were in SoCal walking around and there was a sign that said port 554, our group went to eat and they were being weird. I was gonna pay for Matt’s lunch then Ralph stopped us from leaving and said to get back here. Idk what character he was dressed as but he had this grey metallic paint on his face and the colors were almost like a Sub-Zero Mortal Kombat cosplay which was awesome.  It’s like everyone was cosplaying.   He said he didn’t know why they didn’t seat us in the main area or give us the warehouse so we’re gonna booby trap them or something. And we all crouched down along the tables and were gonna jump up and yell something, but I had this great idea to yell SMOKE BOMB! like Krieger from Archer and woke up.

So last night Mel had a weird dream! And she gave me permission to post this on here! :3

She was trapped in a bridal store and was fighting people off with mannequin limbs.  Basically this woman wouldn’t leave her alone.  She just wanted to try on this one dress, and the lady kept making other suggestions and it was making her crazy.  Then like 10 sales people headed her way and she was running. We’re going to blame looking at  dresses before bed. 🙂

I <3 that the first and most current dreams posted on here are Mel’s.

I didn’t get the chance to draft anything this morning and forgot almost everything.  I think I was moving to LA, and Dead To Me was playing in my head when I woke up.

I had to fix the registry after a BSOD.  I’ve never had to fix it irl.  The only example I could find references WinXP after BSOD stop error 0x7B, INACCESSIBLE_BOOT_DEVICE.. which I haven’t seen in forever and STILL didn’t have to !@#$ with the registry.  My dreams are making me tech rage.  So in this dream that happened, and Jimmy and I were off site at some weird conference.  I fought with some editing software on an iPad and senpai suggested I get an iPhone.  My response was eff that I’m not provisioning one.  He is still senpai in my dreams… and I am still Cakey.

I fraking <3 Tumblr so much.

Sorg and I were alone sitting on the couch at a friends house while the tv was on in the background. I asked about how new Saab or Volkswagen was, remembering he bought one of them, whichever one offered trips to the UK to take delivery. We started making out and stopped when I thought BB and the others would be back soon, then we heard friends coming in.

We were playing some weird racing game. I don’t think the CG is there yet, it kind of reminded me of GITS and Appleseed in style and then taken too far. I know there was other stuff after this but it’s so foggy I’m not even gonna try.

I can’t even write about what I observed in my dreams last night. The abuses were on the level of decades of torture that finally come to light then CNN covers it. Children, animals, psychological abuse and domestic violence.

I was walking on the top floor of an office space during a build out. It was dim and had a lot of work to go. There was old carpet and it was being renovated.  I was walking the halls and opened a door, there were millions of severed heads in this pit below, it was a long drop and it went as far as the eye could see. This was the largest human grave, it looked like the remains of every human that ever lived and died were piled and you had no idea how deep it went, and the newest remains to the collection were at the top, then I was afraid of falling in and immediately shut the door.

I was in a green room for an event trying out some kind of teeth whitening strip thing for some advertisement and this guy who looked like Scott was talking to some other guy saying he didn’t really care for the product being endorsed and it wasn’t super super whitening anyway. Then the other guy was all yeah its not the excessive bright whitening it’s subtle and natural looking. We left the room to join everyone else at the event. We’re waiting at the bar and I said something about it at least being subtle and smiled, he pulled me against him and his jacket felt so guuud, and his shirt felt satiny, all this soft warm fabric, it was like falling into black silk and he kissed me, which is freaking weird cause its Scott.  Wtf.

My friend Kat posted that she had a nightmare she was pregnant with twins the other night. lol

I was searching for him but never found him. Woke up in my car in this field, saw wifey and walked a bit until we parted ways at a light. Then I remember walking through a colorfully painted house in Tucson with a lady. We were trying to get out but it was impossible.

The last words spoken while waking up from this morning’s dream was “your princess is in another castle.”  I don’t know who said it or why, I can’t even remember if it was a male or female voice.

Where are you princess?  Which castle?!

6:18am:

Been waking up non stop since 3am. Dreaming the weirdest stuff and can’t remember the previous one, but the one I just woke up from a designated friend and I were getting gas and snacks. She left to use the powder room and I was sitting at this table fighting my gaming laptop. It wouldn’t turn off, it was going to overheat. I got into a confrontation with some guy who was messing with our stuff.

Before that when we were driving around I was commenting on the architecture and other stuff. We drove past a lot and there was a drone landing, I wondered if it was doing touch and go exercises but it wasn’t. The chick who was with me said it sounded like it was the for me to leave, I asked what she meant and she repeated “I think it’s time for you to leave us and move on.” And I mentioned growing up in one desert and now living in another, and it’s weird cause I’ve been south and I’ve been east but have never seen the Atlantic ocean. There was a lot of anxiety for no reason. She said something about keeping in contact and we’d go on a road trip.  But the context for leave us kept changing from leaving LV to just leaving, like it’s time for me to die.

And there was some other dream before that I can’t remember, I just woke up around 3 something again feeling like my heart was going to explode and feeling really sick. Woke up shaking a couple times after that. I’m not supposed to be awake if this happens dammit. I think today’s plans are sol.

8:04am:

This dream started off with me fighting a TV with a downloaded remote on my phone from Google play. Gave up and walked away.  I was outside on a chaise lounge in this patio looking up at the neighbors balconies. The one next to the one next door was decorated with lanterns and paper flowers. I remember them having lunar new year decorations by their front door too. Someone was going around the yards taking meter readings so I decided to go inside thinking I’m not going to make any decisions regarding a house that’s not mine. I’m not even sure who I was visiting.

I was exhausted and went down the hall to the bedroom on the far left, and wrapped myself in the top blanket. The door opened and Edan (BB’s son) came in looking for something then a gf told him to go play somewhere else. While the door was open I noticed a group was sitting in the living room while you talked about some foreign soft drink and had some with you. I tilted my head and closed my eyes, someone shut the door.

I heard you say “give me a couple minutes” through the door and came into the room. You sat on the bed next to me, grabbed my hand and told me to release the tension I was holding on to, then you said “now we’re gonna do it my way.” And I squeezed your hand tight and it felt so warm, I could feel on my face that I cracked a little smile. I tried to open my eyes but couldn’t, all I could do was listen to your voice and feel your hand holding mine. You had to go back to dealing with the group and when I was able to open my eyes saw my friend sitting on the other bed.

I asked if someone were just in here and she said no but she’d been hallucinating some things since the new year and it was all just stress. We left and went to school, with Chibi from TBM and a couple other peeps, the escalators were all going down but we had to go up so we had to look for stairs. The ceilings were tall, the buildings were white and red and the windows were huge, letting a bunch of light in. We were walking past a Starbucks in the building and they had soo many pastries and these cute fruit tarts in chocolate shells so we waited to get some and then I realized I was topless AND my bag must have been upstairs so no fruit tart, my friend grabbed my boobs from  behind to cover them and she suggested covering them in the dipping chocolate they used for the cake pops and chocolate shells and I was and no, that’s the worst idea ever, and woke up.

I want super nachos and some awesome Mexican beef stew. In this dream it was some holiday and not much was open. This was like two Fili-b’s put together. Like the full sized one was closed but the walk up window side was still open. I was describing Breaking Bad to a friend I work with.

Oh and someone heard me over the phone as I was walking away and the person wearing the headset flagged me down saying “hey, he heard you he wants to talk to you.” So I sat down next to dude and said “hello?” And the guy on the phone started throwing questions at me, then I explained data usage, how you can check those on jetpacks, and overages. /head desk

There were kids running around the house when I got there, a niece and nephew? We went into a bedroom that was setup kind of like a home office / guest room and there was a sliding door out to a back yard. It seemed like your personal space where you worked, isolated when you needed to recharge, and sometimes slept. As we spoke you made some references to the conflicting voices in your head on what to do, and I asked if the one dominating had a name.  You just threw out a name, it was very White Christmas.  I wasn’t sure if it was just the phrasing everyone uses in reference to the little voice inside their head telling them what’s right for them.  That little intuition, that little conscience.  It got late, we’d been talking and when I realized the time you said I should stay so I was considering it. You had your arm around me as we laid there and we heard the front door out by the living room unlock and open.  You rushed out since it was Anna and I remained where I was wondering what was going to come of this.  I wasn’t sure if she’d left on vacation and was back unexpectedly early or if this was just your personal space she never bothered to enter.  I heard conversation but couldn’t make out what was actually being said outside of her being aware it was me, and you stressing whatever this was had just started.  She didn’t seem to care at all, like she was too preoccupied herself, or didn’t have the emotional capacity to pay it any attention.  She was basically indifferent and she didn’t want to know anything.  I wandered out into the hall and the house was empty, then walked into another room with these ivory and eggplant colored drapes and sheets everywhere.  That’s all I can remember.  In the words of MDFMK, get out of my head. I can’t break like this every morning.