This morning my friend at work Terry said he had the strangest dream and felt he had to tell me about it since I love hearing about dreams. In this one he was at a party and appetizer trays were going around. They had bars of soap on them and he took a few and carved one into a cell phone and it worked. He said it was weird, I thought it was nifty. lol
Online Kelli said “If I visit you in dreams, I’m on the prowl apparently. Let me know the stories!!! I am so full of love and affection I could burst!” I’m really hoping she visits me tonight now. I’m kind of serious. (I miss her)
I remembered dreams when I woke up this morning but I felt they weren’t worth recording so I don’t remember them now. Visit me in my dreams, it’ll make me want to remember them.
Random passing thoughts in the shower tonight included omg hot water feels so good, I think hot water at the end of the day can fix almost anything. I am going to lose all the purple in one shot… it’s okay I’m still good. I shaved my legs omg they feel good.. I wanna wrap them around.. omg I shaved in between my… feels soooo smooth. I’m all nice, and soft, and warm, why am I sleeping alone? I want chocolate. No I don’t. My sleep schedules still gonna be effed up.
Sage shared an article this evening called “Are you beautiful? I asked 100 men what ‘physical beauty’ is and the results shocked me” by Rozanne Leigh. He said the headline was “kinda clickbate” but the article was true, stop getting sick over how you think you should look etc. I loved it, Margaret Cho and Tina Fey were quoted. It kind of encompassed how I’ve viewed things the last few years and it really contrasts where my mindset was in my teenage years and early 20’s. I think a lot of the issues I had were influenced by who I was around, the situations I was in, who I dated back in the day, and how I let those things impact my perspective. Loving “gothic beauty” and counterculture probably helped a lot back then. It’s funny that fighting to be me and not focus on appearance is probably what made me love myself inside and out, and saved me from some really bad things that probably could have killed me. I shouldn’t even be here right now, and I’m so happy I am. I’m comfortable in my own skin, and no one is ever going to change that. This is redundant from yesterday, but I became that goth queen I wanted to be when I was 15.. and I rarely ever wear makeup. lol
It’s 11:45PM. Dammit.