Today is our actual anniversary but we will celebrate this weekend. Last weekend I shared a playlist called “A” that contains music I’ve collected throughout our relationship that I associate with him or us, and a few are some of the most beautiful songs I’ve ever heard. Sometimes the emotional pull from music overwhelms me and these ones make me think of Adrian, like Lamb’s Lullaby.
I am excited to do absolutely nothing together, I think we really needed low key this year.
Random side note, I’ve been trying to deconstruct and rebuild my life to become a better version of myself and can already see I’m trying to take on too many new things at once without clearing old things that consume time and bandwidth. I’m still learning balance and steady pacing, I keep trying to go from 0 to 100 and that’s not smart. I’m trying to refocus and prioritize on mental and physical health first without getting overwhelmed by everything else. Hoping I can reflect on this in a year and see my efforts were successful. I have to believe in myself, it’s not the first time I’ve thrown everything out (habits/beliefs and perceived limitations/clutter) and started over.