Apparently all the things, like half, are in retrograde and I don’t follow this stuff or understand what it’s supposed to mean to those who who do follow it, but everything’s been a shit show and I’m kind of over here going… it’s just been a continual shitshow since forever anyway? Work is going alright, personal stuff seems to be okay, my relationship is struggle bussing. I was so mad earlier today, the communication disconnect is so bad, I’m being heard but not understood. I’m worried but I’m fed up, sad but angry, frustrated but ready to try another approach to try and bridge this gap. It’s a new issue with major consequences and I know I’m justified in my anger but I absolutely hate being angry and having issues open on the table. I don’t know if we’ll have better success tomorrow. I hope we do. I think the third rounds a charm and I really really hope we can learn from this.
His birthday present just showed up at my door and I brought it in. It’s a week away, Idk how anything is gonna go.
A close friend I consider family stayed on the phone with me for a couple hours while I vented and rubber ducked tonight. This person has the unique perspective on both sides and gave me some ideas and helped me reconfirm root causes of my grievances. I am eternally grateful for this kind of support. Then we caught up on what’s been going on, on their side.
Another friend I’ve known for over a decade pinged me out of the blue this evening. This is someone I worked with at the same company a long long time ago and then randomly ran into at a pub in downtown Seattle for a hacker meetup when I was visiting for an interview. I had no idea he relocated and we kind of reconnected and went on a date after I’d moved to town but he had to step back due to his partner at the time dealing with some distress (unrelated to our date as far as I know). Well, when I asked for volunteers to test out a zoom call with me prior to an interview earlier this year, he happened to catch it and hopped on to chat for a bit. Later I pinged him and made an inquiry about sitting on his face and he said that would be “sexcellent.” I said I’d be stealing that, which I have at least once. And then he pings me tonight to pick back up on the conversation after seeing a post I made wanting instant gratification in the form of tacos. This flirting came back out of nowhere and it’s going strong and it’s more than welcome, the abrupt restart kind of threw me off though. We’ll see if and when and where this goes.