We were chatting on video while I was sitting after hours in my office. I was wearing a white dress and my hair was longer. After a couple minutes I decided to mute the computer so I couldn’t hear you panic when I grabbed the knife and you could see it, I didn’t want you to distract me while I stabbed myself. It hurt so bad that I didn’t have the strength to keep pulling the knife to the side and accidentally jerked it up diagonally across my stomach.. it was strangely calm while I bled out. And then I woke up.