So this was unexpected, but I guess not surprising. A few weeks ago I went and had coffee with Sarah and made some new friends, it happened to land at a favorite cafe downtown that has patio seating outside. There was a guy named Steve who had the best cybergoth aesthetic I’ve seen in a long time, but he called it something else, something techwear? I can’t remember, but it looks good, and he made quite an impression. His partner is also lovely and has a great aesthetic going too. Some crazy thing happened where this unstable dude from the street started yelling at us, and had apparently been around before I showed up so this is when Steve started confronting him and asking what he wanted, if he needed something, etc. The guy had come back with a large wooden stick that had metal caps(?) on the end and was being threatening until property management came out of nowhere and got in dudes face until PD showed up. It was wild. But other than that we had a pretty good afternoon. So of course my brain is like, this is a no go, they’re partnered. Then on social media I find they’re poly, or are exploring it since the gf also started seeing someone else. My brain then defaults back to the, we’ve barely interacted although I’d love to more because they’re fun and nice and are into the same events I am, we just haven’t been around the same place at the same time while also knowing each other (they had their own crew at Bass Canyon, hah). I’d want to become better friends with them both regardless, and even writing this out I feel presumptuous af, there’s no guarantee of reciprocation in attraction or interest, nor would I know if he’s even ready to explore out of his current dynamic. I’m not going to approach this, it’ll just be nice to run into them organically if it lands that way. We’re kind of online friends now but if we end up at the same music event, cool. I can’t tell if they’re egalitarian or hierarchical, and they might still be trying to figure that out. It’s also none of my business. What I can tell is they’re nesting partners who are deeply in love, and they have an admirable dynamic together.
I haven’t had much time in the mornings to record dreams because of early meetings and not being able to take my time to wake up. So this mornings dream was interesting because I was out with this group again and we were all having a good time. I can’t remember most of the details because I’ve been up for hours dealing with work, but wanted to at least get this much down until it was completely gone. At some point in the dream he and I were chatting and then ended up sitting together on a couch and we were both trying to read each other, then leaned in to kiss each other. It was surprising even in the dream, there was a flood of I’m excited, and surprised, and maybe we’d been flirting but we hadn’t discussed anything so HOW DID WE GET HERE?! *dream Internet yelling and excitement*
It was a good dream, I guess my brain hasn’t let go of this little crush even though I’ve put it out of my mind during waking hours.