I feel like a hot mess late at night with my thoughts.
I still have a hard time listening to Utada Hikaru’s music despite loving her so much. I’ve tried to circle back to her a few times and felt some emotional sting despite wanting to keep current with releases. I’ve been listening this evening and it’s a tough mix of nostalgia, sadness, happiness, wanting to reach out and share whenever things are brand new, wanting connection. But it’s mostly the nostalgia.