I feel like I have too much to write about / gush about / write out of my system and I’m not sure if I want to do some messy anti-format tangenty thing or post them separately. It’s 1:31am, I’m sleepy and in bed, but my brain won’t let me sleep until I get at least some of this down.
I was sick through the first half of the month, first with an upper respiratory infection, and then a secondary sinus infection. It involved two doctors visits, a slew of prescriptions, missed work, and a very rough recovery.
I planned a surprise for Valentines Day. It was the first time in 8 years since I celebrated and was excited af to plan things and share this time with someone I love. And I was sick. I canceled or rescheduled so many things, it was super busy (it’s always busy but this was excessive) first couple of weeks so there was a lot of shuffling things around. I had tickets to the midnight show at Can Can and booked a corner room at the Hyatt Regency so we didn’t have to worry about driving home after the show. I picked up an HDMI adapter for my iPad in case we wanted to watch or listen to anything, and I requested a late checkout.
Luckily I was able to move everything to this last weekend. I picked Saturday since we were doing a different weekend and it would be easier. Hyatt’s getting fancy with being able to check in, get into your room, and check out with your phone. I wore one of my favorite dresses and went more vintage than goth. The Can Can was a lot of fun, it’s burlesque but it has comedy and variety in it, and everything was pretty.
Adrian told me he loved me. At first I was sure I heard it right but wasn’t sure if I’d hallucinated it in some wishful cross faded stupor. He’d confirmed and I almost had an aneurysm I was so happy. I shared the thing I wrote on here in November and every word feels the same now like it did when I wrote it. This is a dream in my waking life. I’m not afraid of waking up and losing anything. I’m looking forward to being a snow bunny in Leavenworth with him this weekend.
There’s so much other stuff on my mind, work stuffs, health, my hiring manager asking about someone who used to work at my last company, my phone still autocorrects Jösh after all this time.. aaaaand I just blanked even though I know there’s other stuff. But I don’t feel like including all that on this so I’ll pick back up later. Maybe.