I seem to be at the 5 year mark since the last big shift, first at 21 then 26. This is welcome and terrifying, there’s so much more on this one. I really don’t mean to be cryptic I’m just still trying to figure it out for myself. I thought I was done asking myself how I’ll ever get through this. The other day I didn’t have this kind of hesitation inside, but I need to keep moving forward. I still need to get my thoughts out on the haven, and defcon is this weekend. That’s just one of many things in my life I wanted to share. I wanted to share that experience with you, among many others. Some wistful trap that turns melancholic keeps pulling me in, it’s been a lot stronger lately.. maybe it’s from how heavy the stress is and wanting a distraction or a happy memory no matter where it comes from? I don’t know what I need right now.
Lately I just keep making paper stars.