I keep going for walks with the past in my head. It’s been maddening. So has the immense physical pain I’ve been feeling for days. I can’t wait to get this mitigated… at least I hope it can be.
I forgot I could get this depressed (not really), there’s more going on than I can deal with long term. I know it’s not sustainable, it’s not supposed to be, but I don’t see a break in this anytime soon. The exhaustion’s not helping. Driving cross country is hard, doing it three times in under a month is crazy but there isn’t really a choice.
I wish I could have good dreams that wouldn’t break my heart when I wake up.