I wish I hadn’t looked, Utada Hikaru’s tour in Japan is happening now. Idk if she’ll do anything in the US or internationally. Her music held a lot significance and sentiment over the years, and eventually became synonymous with a heartache that took years to not sting so hard. Knowing you’re not right for each other doesn’t make it any easier. I’ve moved forward in so many ways the last couple years, but sometimes feel like I’ve been standing still this whole time. Being back in Vegas to handle this situation while trying to strategize my Seattle life has been beyond daunting. My mom is my priority right now. I need her to be okay. But trying to hold everything up and looking for a distraction, only for my mind to wander into the past isn’t helping. I miss a very specific warmth and comfort in my life.