Bonny hit me up today on LinkedIn to ask about the company I’m low key getting ready to leave, what timing lol. I tried to be as honest and neutral as possible, explaining people don’t leave companies, they leave bad managers. And I started out with a great one but after a couple reorgs I got screwed. It happens, that’s luck. I told her if she finds the right team and a good manager it’s heaven. I also gave info on the hiring process, company culture, how teams and orgs are structured, and stressed that I’d never discourage anyone from applying there because of my experience, but would just caution them. She appreciated the information and said she’d research and let me know if she wanted a referral.
I’m looking forward to Blackhat and Defcon this year, it’s such a relief getting confirmation that at least that’s been locked down. I need more comfort in my life right now. I miss a lot of people I’ve met and gotten to know at those events, and I miss my friends there so the visit will be a nice decompression. The stress lately has been making me very sick, way more sick than I want to admit. I have too much pride, but I know I stress really bad in transitions I didn’t pick, or when my hand is forced and will stress until it’s finalized and I land on a decision. This is a million times worse than any other corporate bs I’ve ever been through, but I feel better equipped to handle it compared to previous issues. The world doesn’t feel like it’s ending like it used to. I was not graceful at all in previous crises… not that I’m saying I’ve figured out how to be graceful now, but looking at how I’ve handled things previously is embarrassing. (I did fracture two molars from stress this time around though so that’s shitty). It’s weird. Does 30 make that much of a difference? Or is that just experience and knowing it’s not worth panic? At least it’s almost over.
I can’t wait to grab my swimsuit and chill at the pool at Mandalay.