Had this horrible dream Jay and I were reconciling after taking a really short break. Its like I went back to 2012. We were out at a venue, then went home and were in my bed about to have sex. He was acting unusual and was being hesitant in some ways so I took over, and as soon as I wrapped my legs around him and pulled him closer, he pulled back and had this panicked look on his face. This is where I found out he slept with another chick and lied to me about it, and hadn’t gotten tested yet and was freaked out he couldn’t guarantee not passing something to me. I’m pissed off about that, and also about him lying and putting my health at risk more than anything. This break was super brief, and I got up and yelled at him to “get the fuck out of my house.” He left and I was fuming, trying to figure out what to post on fb, like how to word things as a warning for the community (and out him as a liar) without sounding petty or like I was falsely accusing him of anything outside of what he’d already done / I didn’t want someone to misread as a false accusation he had something when it was inconclusive. I woke up before I got that far.