It’s almost 3AM. There seems to be a reoccurring theme here, lol. I don’t get it, I’m home way before midnight and still don’t fall asleep at a decent time. Maybe it’ll get better once I’m in the new place? I need to enforce a routine again. And I’ve noticed I’ve been venting more on here recently too, but I feel like it’s letting me get it out of my system as it periodically rises, so I’ll run with it.
Today I went to see my first ballet. It was great and I don’t know why it took so long for me to get over some hang ups. I’d made a comment recently about how I reserved some things in my mind as things I couldn’t do by myself, like it wouldn’t be special enough if it wasn’t a shared thing, or would be boring, or just sad. I think this is why I haven’t been pushing for international travel as much, even though its still a thing I want. And then I decided I could enjoy things later when I have someone to enjoy them with, but I can still go do them now on my own. I was the only person stopping myself, so I got the tickets.
I made a list a couple days prior of all the different things I hadn’t done in this city, and I’ve been here a year… and even though it wasn’t a priority I still saw a bit of the touristy stuff and the cultural stuff. I think once I’m out of downtown I’ll be able to breathe. I can visit, I can take it or leave it, instead of being immersed in it 24/7. This is a beautiful state, and the nice drives and the trees and mountains are not far away. Maybe having more space up north, and going through my list of local things will help me like it here more. It worked with Vegas. And I got to check off ballet, and taking the monorail today.