Monthly Archives: September 2017

I Wish

Lately topics surrounding bucket lists have been coming up, and with you mentioning evaluating early retirement, it made me ask myself what I would want to do if I were retired, or had more time to do anything. I kind of gave up on the idea of retiring a long time ago, and now it seems waaaaaaay more obtainable than it did even a couple years ago. I remembered all the dream goals I had… like when people say “my dream is to be this” or “to do this” but it never fit into a neat package with a one sentence answer. So, I guess I have a list of things I’d like to try and accomplish in my lifetime:

– Drive the entire PanAm freeway.  I know there’s a gap at Panama, and it’s dangerous.  Idk if I’d ever get this opportunity anyway, but it’s only doable under the condition I learn Spanish.
– Obtain a pilots license.
– Learn to weld.
– Learn to drive a car with a manual transmission. You know, in case zombies.
– Learn ASL.
– Get fluent in Korean… probably live in Korea for a while.
– Get a tattoo in SK.
– Visit a Korean traditional village. Get custom hanbok. Attend tea ceremony.
– Go on an Alaskan cruise.
– See the aurora borealis.
– Take the train from one end of the US to the other.
– See NOLA.
– Visit Iceland.
– Smoke in a coffeeshop in Amsterdam.
– Visit Cuba.
– See Viscacha in Chile.
– Take the Trans-Siberian Railway.
– Visit Mongolia and stay in a yurt.
– Become happily partnered and in love. Combine lists.
– Drink absinthe in Paris.
– Sail around the Mediterranean Sea.
– See Green Gables farm in Prince Edward Island.
– Visit Arcosanti. Acquire bell.
– Go to Space Camp.
– Visit CERN.
– Attend Wave Gotik Treffen.
– See Utada Hikaru.
– Reserve time to use a telescope at an observatory. Come up with viable research project and justification if necessary.
– See all 7 continents.
– Visit Chernobyl.
– Visit Adamstown in the Pitcairn Islands.
– This can kind of tie into some of the others, but my main one is to see every UNESCO World Heritage Site. That list by itself feels impossible, but I want to get through as much of it as possible.
– If getting married, have dress designed by Rima Tadmory.

Realizations in dreams

In my dream I came to this realization my ex only recently started calling himself poly because even though he moved on and dated other women, he’s still in love with me. What a mind fuck.

Every dream with him is so stressful and I feel suffocated and trapped in them. And I know this came up because he showed up in my fb feed out of nowhere yesterday from a mutual friend.

Breaking and entering

I was just laying in bed trying to remember if I ever owned my own landline, and then heard someone break into my apartment, unzip my work backpack and start going through my things. I couldn’t move to get up and lock my bedroom door, and then just woke up for real. Wtf.

That was a scary dream. I wanted to get up and lock the door or grab anything and couldn’t move my arms.

Knock at the door

Just had the weirdest dream I was hanging out with Sarah and this guy and then was in bed and my room was different, then I looked out my windows and it was dark outside and there was a pool and this place looked fancy (it’s a reoccurring place in my dreams), and then I was back in bed and heard steps up the stairs, a small knock at the door, and heard it crack open and then “hang in there.” And I said “dad?” And just woke up.

It doesn’t help my bedroom door is almost in the same spot in my room here that it is in Vegas, or was in the house I grew up in.