Monthly Archives: July 2017

The start of the 2017 season

What a way to start the 2017 season! Ran into friends and was gifted a wristband into a party > tequila > networking >more tequila > cigars being rolled on site so I smoke a cigar while tequila drunk… and the rest is history. I have a badge for tomorrow. *achievement unlocked* Oh Mandalay, nothing that goes down there will ever surprise me.

I sobered up and went home, and while driving out Final Distance plays, followed by The Heart Wants What It Wants. Sounds about right.

This is our playground, and I’ve always played a lot on this particular week. I can’t believe we haven’t been to a con here together yet. It is my goal for us to end up at one of these together. It’s also coincidentally been a goal / running joke to get laid at one of these, and the two efforts do seem to line up nicely. Just sayin.

Contentment after chaos

Had this dream where a lot of weird stuff was going on. I was in space, in some compound and the gates looked like mesh, or metal, or like screen… I wasn’t sure how we were breathing and didn’t lose oxygen. There were a lot of workers being directed in different groups, and some other stuff I can’t remember. There was this one bit where a couple people and I were right outside this thing that was shaped like a shipping container, and I knew something was going to spark and start an explosion so I yelled for everyone to get inside, and when we did something went off and everything was spinning.

I was somewhere else and there was some confusion about my age, and then about this other girl who was late teens / early 20’s. She’d stopped aging completely, scientists couldn’t figure it out. I recorded video on my phone while she was interviewed by someone while doing random tasks like dishes, and you were there to observe, and she was absolutely fascinated by you even though everyone was there to see her. She was tall so I think it was seeing someone taller than her that got her attention.

We ended up in another area for the night and I was curled up in bed, facing the wall and reading some diagram that was posted to it. You were on the bed writing something, but held my right hand, and we were content. I think it was just the proximity. This is the most peaceful I’ve felt in a dream in a while.

Lamb’s Lullaby is stuck in my head.

Vegas, Summer 2017

At the Velveteen Rabbit.

I don’t know what to make of this city. Years ago I reluctantly came here, healed here, found the hidden gems here, and found love here… of all places. It was the last thing I was looking for, in the last place I’d expect.

This week I came here for refuge, and I’m glad I could see you first before arriving. I’ve been decompressing the last two days, and I think it’ll be enough to get me through for a while. I don’t know what 2018 is going to look like, but I think things will get better from here.

This place is our playground. I’m going to some of our favorites, and I wish I could enjoy them with you right now.

Twin sisters

Had a dream I was a teenager and my mom had just had another baby.  We were downstairs in the living room when I heard the printer turn on and heard dad yell it was an accidental print that was going to burn up a paper for half of some really large document and I yelled up the stairs “or you could just hit the cancel button!” And he didn’t respond so I told mom I’d go upstairs and do it, and she stopped my saying she’d deal with it.  Then she came downstairs with my baby sister and I was all, she’s so small! o.o. And then she brought the other one, she had twin daughters… and I was all omg, you had twins, grandma had twins before too? Omg.  They had hazel eyes like me but more green than brown, were wearing cute dresses, and had less hair than I expected.  Then one started to vomit what looked like acorn jelly color but was the consistency of syrup or honey all over her purple dress and I was freaking out yelling mom!!! While holding her up, and when mom went to grab a spit up rag for her, the other one started!

Before that my dream was doing some third person thing about this chick on a small spaceship that was sentient and had an arm in the center of the ship and had a camera on it.. and it had a laser with 360 degree aim at whatever.  It’s goal was destruction and the lady knew she’d be found so she stood up, introduced herself, and started to plead with it to change its mind.  She started talking about how everything’s okay and everyone gets lonely, but it doesn’t have to be anymore cause it’s got her and she kept rambling so it rerouted its course and headed for the sun.

I was also in some town in a beat up lumina and made a fb post looking for contraband and my friend Toby commented to keep him posted if I found it. Lol.  Can’t remember what it actually was though. :v

Literally everything hurts

No dreams to write about right now.  I remember when this level of physical pain used to hospitalize me in my early 20’s… I guess because I know what it is, I’ll take some antinausea medicine so I can try to eat a little, take an anti inflammatory, and go to work and try to get stuff done today.  I didn’t know I could be in this much pain where it could cause intense nausea and wake me up from a dead sleep at 4am.  I want to take the day off and have the time, but feel it would look bad right after a holiday so I won’t.   I know I overdid it yesterday getting up at 4am to grab a rental and head north, but I had business to tend to and this allowed me to do it without taking time off work, or waiting months for the opportunity to come around again, but being up 19 hours and driving over 400 miles kicked my ass, and I forgot I would be PMSing now, and I’m achey from a new class so everything’s feeling like it’s snowballing here.  And the early mornings pretty much guarantee a flare but I had to be early.  Just needed to vent this somewhere. *sigh*

Bellagio

Had this weird AF dream I was walking around with a friend and idk if we were at a ren fair or something  else but we got to the end of a road and I wanted to get a closer look at a building so I went through the gate, and when I looked down from the bridge(?) I was standing on, saw a bunch of pigs in this dirt area below me and they were hella aggressive and off so I decided to turn around and go back to find my friend.

Allison and I went to grab food, and this guy (who I later realized looked like my old boss Tyler) kept coming around and was being super awkward (he was irl too!) and I can’t remember details, but later I was setup at a computer in another room with these rows of desks… that’s kind of similar to the setup I have going on now, and was chatting with Allison on I’m and he eventually came back and decided to set up at the desk across from me, which kind of surprised me and I was fine with it cause I wouldn’t have to look at him.  Which is funny, I remember he had really good hair, but was just awkward AF and had some interesting quirks omg.

I’m missing a lot of details from my dreams this morning, but the last bit I remember was being back  in Vegas and derping around the strip with Dan, and heading back to my room at the Bellagio and making out in the elevator.  I haven’t seen what the elevators or rooms look like there yet, lol