I have so many things I want to pursue, but I know I’ll never be good at any of them unless I dedicate myself to one at a time. So this cert is taking precedence right now. But I hate drowning in a black and white world that lacks creativity and new things. So this week I soldered things, made hot chocolate from scratch, started a new (to me) social media platform, and sous vide’d something (steak) for the first time. It worked out so well I did salmon the next day. They’re all baby steps… and mostly centered around food.
It’s been extremely difficult focusing on the big project and the bigger picture with how bad I’ve been wanting physical attention lately. I mean, that’s every day. I know, but lately it’s been harder to ignore. Everything always appears calm and orderly, but there’s always a storm inside. At least things seem to have normalized after the recent news hit me. There was a cancellation at the doc’s office and they called me to see if I wanted to come in sooner and I said hell yeah. That’s a plus I guess.
I want to eat good food, go to new places, and have a lot of sex. Am I asking for too much?