Me: I had one of those “that moment when you make out with someone you had a crush on since like 2010 or 2011” moments.
B: Haha that’s great I hope it goes well
Me: Ty! I think it is already, we geeked out and talked about a lot of industry shenanigans we pulled, and I asked him about Marissa and he explained how they’ve been open, then were monogamous for a while, now they’re open and are basically exploring. She’s seen a couple people, apparently I’m the first person he’s asked out since their relationship has been evolving in this direction, so that felt kind of flattering.. I mentioned my surprise since I had my own crush in Phoenix and didn’t wanna creep and he explained I was kind of off limits because we worked for the same company back then and I was all say no more. I get it.
I’m so happy right now because I’m more content in the love I have for Josh, but I can love him and still see other people. The concepts don’t “compete for resources” or anything. So I’m not feeling as alone anymore, and actually allowing myself to date feels pretty good
B: That’s all great to hear!