Confusion

I was just babbling on to you about this confusion I kept having cause I was waiting for you and you were in bed facing the other way, like when my feets were at the headboard to watch OUAT.. like that, and I started crying cause when you weren’t around I couldn’t figure out where you were and when you were around I couldn’t figure out where my parents were or where I’d been or what was going on (we were in their old room in Phoenix) and you told me to calm down and breathe and maybe go drink some water cause maybe I was dehydrated and to look at you and then you explained your job had you bouncing between here (being Phoenix) and Oklahoma City and I couldn’t look up at you like my vision gets wrecked in some dreams so I knew something was off and I asked okay so if you’re here now are my parents coming back? It was very disorienting like I’d remember one thing and then forget it for something else and toggle back and forth.  And then I was by myself and was looking on fb on my phone and you, and I’m guessing Anna, just closed on some huge house somewhere in California earlier in the morning and I hallucinated that entire conversation (which I guess kind of is true cause it’s a dream) but this waking up from dreams while still dreaming thing, omg and that stomach drop feeling from never seeing you ever again.  I hate these confusing dreams when I wake up more than once.

I’m sorry I dream bombed you earlier this morning.

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