Monthly Archives: May 2016

I was thinking about a dream that’s stayed with me for years, and am surprised it wasn’t archived in 2004 or 2009.  I think I kept it within me, but kept it buried from 2009 on, until idk when. When I was 13, so this was sometime in 2001, I had a dream I woke up from a nap on this bed, like the bed was made and I slept on top of the blankets.  I looked over to my left and saw the ocean out the window and it was during sunset, so I know this was the west coast, and am guessing somewhere in California.  It was calm, with cool colors, and thin white curtains that were open were hanging over the window.  I got up and looked at the mirror hanging from the bedroom door, I was an adult.  My hair was shoulder length and I had blunt bangs (I’d never had my hair like this before), I was wearing a red sleeveless blouse and loose black pants, and I was very pregnant. A man, who I could only imagine was my husband, walked into the bedroom. I hate how dreams don’t let you see faces, I never remembered seeing facial features, but I remembered he was tall, and had very dark hair.  He  kissed me, then knelt down and kissed my tummy twice, and that’s how I knew we were having twins. I’d forget about this dream for a few years then remember it at random. It was just nice. I remember wondering what I’d look like as an adult woman someday too. Half knowing I’d be really pretty, half hoping. Wondering if I’d recognize the other person in the dream in a few years even though there were no details, and it could be anyone. They’re just dreams.

My wifey’s hair was super red again a she dressed up as Ariel from the little mermaid, in the blue and black dress with her hair in a bow for Halloween. And it was perfect! She looked like a character at Disneyland omg, and she flashed her huge smile, and she was wearing these pearl earrings, and had the long flowey skirt with a petticoat under, and she had some fake blood going down from the corner of her mouth to the bottom of her chin and she was holding a severed zombie hand while hugging someone who was dressed up as a zombie for Halloween. This was in the daytime out on her front porch and omg. ^-^

And there were donuts, so many donuts! I went to this bakery and asked for two, not realizing I ordered two dozen.  So when I got back I opened the box and kept pulling more donuts ou on to this wire basket to try and figure out which one I wanted to eat.  They were all fancy and decorated differently and a lot of them had this vanilla cream kinda like frosting inside.  I found one I ripped open and it was flakey inside like a croissant with some chocolate in it so I decided to eat that one.

We were chatting on video while I was sitting after hours in my office.  I was wearing a white dress and my hair was longer.  After a couple minutes I decided to mute the computer so I couldn’t hear you panic when I grabbed the knife and you could see it, I didn’t want you to distract me while I stabbed myself.  It hurt so bad that I didn’t have the strength to keep pulling the knife to the side and accidentally jerked it up diagonally across my stomach.. it was strangely calm while I bled out. And then I woke up.

You married Anna.  She was trying to pull off a scam and it involved Tacey, that chick from nationals who sucks.  Anyway,  Anna needed your help to pull it off and said you needed to be married for it to work, and you decided to help her.  I couldn’t stop it, I couldn’t do anything.  My stomach hurts so bad.