Omg I’m exhausted, I went to bed at like 9:40… I went to bed 10 hours ago, why am I not caught up on sleep yet? Even my dreams are making fun of this. I had a few throughout the night but just woke up from one where I was in the office, but it looked completely different. Carpet was different, the desks, etc. I was getting annoyed with this bench and decided to move it and go hit up Shane to find out where the other office chairs were. I was carrying it and this chick at the end of a row was in my way, then gave me this look and I gave one back so she’d move. When I was making my way back to IT’s area through this narrow aisle TSO was all hey I want you to meet so and so and I was like okay? He’s our new Sr. TSE and I was like got it, hi, hello. He shook my hand and I was thinking if you’re going to reach out for my hand at least mean it, I hate it when people reach out to shake your hand and they’re shitty at it. Then he stepped down from where he was at, the floor was kind of uneven. This guy was hot, I forgot his name, but he was stupid hot. He looked like Joe Manganiello. I noticed Jason was at my computer and realized I must have left it unlocked cause I was tired, I never fucking do that. I’ve never done it once. That’s been a friable offence in so many offices I’ve been in and you don’t want anyone going through your computer anyway. I went up to my computer and made him move, my background was all green and I was all it should be red. My gaming laptop was docked in with the two other monitors above it. The row was making some weird L and TSO was at his computer talking, the new guy stood next to me and grabbed the mouse in his left hand to fix some setting then put his right arm around me and placed his hand on my hip. I was thinking this can’t actually be… Imma leave that there. This was like that one time I went clubbing in 2013. Omg. At least I was cute. I was wearing the black knit dress I got from Nordstrom and the black suede lace up wedges Anne bought right before her trip to Philly. Those shoes are so not my style. Still cute, but not for me. I couldn’t change how something looked in some home brew proprietary site we were in and he was able to run through it and mentioned how he got into coding as a hobby in college. I was thinking how I wanted to hate him but at the same time I couldn’t cause he was helping me and he’s pretty and his hand is on me and I leaned in earlier so I hope he got the message. He should just follow me somewhere, just follow me. Idk where yet, it doesn’t matter. lol
TSO started firing off a bunch of settings I needed and how it should display like I’d ever remember it all, and at least if it were through an IM I could scroll up and make those changes one by one but I just stared at him like… I’m not going to remember all that. He does that to people. He did mention in the dream how we were pretty tired and a few of us were waking up at night. Strange. Also, well played dream. Anyway…
I get what’s going on irl, they’re hiring Sr. titles straight up under my group and are specifically looking for people with scripting knowledge to fill those roles. I’ve always known scripting would be beneficial to know, I never thought not having this skill set would completely fuck me over. It’s become apparent why I got a raise recently but not a promotion like a couple of the TSA’s in the company did, even though we’re all taking on a greater work load. I don’t have the mindset for it and coding isn’t my passion, I’d rather do more of what infra does but I can’t even transition into sys eng and two of them were just hired in my office and the new one in another state. If it weren’t for university I’d be actively trying to find another company right now. But it’s been so busy last week and this week I haven’t studied. Omg I feel trapped.