I just woke up from this dream and I can’t stop crying. I feel like throwing up.
I was driving and dropped mom off at a cross walk and she was safely on the corner. I started driving toward another stop sign and the car in front of me stopped abruptly because there was like a foot of water ahead. It just stopped like reaching the ocean on a hill you were closer to the bottom of. The car in front of me happened to be facing me idk when they uturned but the terror in the other drivers eyes were all I needed to switch the car in reverse and slam the accelerator. I kept looking ahead at that car coming near me, and the rushing water, while looking back at the car behind me trying to do what I’m doing only they aren’t as fast as me and teuokf not to hit them. I’m frantically looking for mom anywhere to stop and grab her. As we’re approaching and passinf that street I see her and honk the horn for her to turn around and see it and run. Somehow it seems contained on the road and in the general area, it’s more steep than the sidewalk and shops. So I hope she runs east or west or whatever is perpendicular to the rushing water. Were finally driving under water trying to figure out how to get out.
The dream switched to some 3rd party perspective and mom was driving the Kia. She was wearing an outfit with a black vest and cotton socks she wears IRL. She was driving with both hands on the wheel, looking at the stops under water, imagining the people that were in there. I mean I was, that was what my brain made us look at. She looked ahead on the road and above her and it was nothing but water. Water way above her and way ahead of her and after her inspection, a visual “wow” in her facial expression, and that’s when she opened her mouth and exhaled.
I woke up with the thought of her giving up and drowning. I was in the same situation in the Kia and couldn’t save her, I was sure she was safer out of the car, out of the rushing water, and that’s the ending that woke me up. There were other in office dreams before that but fuck that. Fuck this. I’ve had bad dreams consistently for weeks. But. Fuck. Don’t take my mom away. I can’t handle the thought.