Everything is wrong, I have a bad headache.  I haven’t been this depressed and emotionally lost in a while.  Every aspect of my life is upside down again. This isn’t like August 2012 bad, or September 2013 bad… yet.  Why is it always around this time of year? Home life, work life, education, personal, relationship.. it can all diaf.  I could write novels on every one of these but fuck it.  I don’t want to care about anything negative that’s happening at all because it all drags me down.  Everything. I’m tired of looking forward to the next event to get me through in the meantime instead of just being content.  I feel like as soon as I get over one major thing two more pop up.  I know that’s how life is, there will always be obstacles… but a breather would be nice… instead of fighting a hydra that won’t ever die.

I keep saying I’ll feel better when I actually study, it hasn’t happened yet.  There’s been no motivation, or I’ve been exhausted or distracted or not around.  I keep saying I’ll feel better when I go back to barre since I skipped through con week.  *head desk*