I can’t think. I can’t brain, this this was really bad because it was really good. My close gay friend almost made me orgasm by getting into my head. I can’t remember the last time someone got to me like that with just words… that I wasn’t sleeping with.. but still even then holy hell. We went to this awesome Chinese / Vietnamese place in Chinatown for dinner and on the drive back started talking about this guy he saw the other night and how it went and we brought up past relationships knowing when they went downhill because sexual frequency went way down. There were a couple tangents and even though he identifies as gay he’s enjoyed being with women occasionally and has this oral fixation thing where he loves going down on men and women. Then he randomly asks me if I liked getting my labia sucked.. while. I. was. driving. Idk. I never thought of it and I guess my partners never thought of it. He found this amusing.
I mean, I don’t think and I can’t concentrate. I get a little weird about this particular topic, and I didn’t go into this in the car, but like… I really enjoy giving, I really really enjoy giving I can relate on that on a high level, but the receiving gets weird. I have this thing where I have to be right out of the shower and freshly groomed aaaaand even then I’m so sensitive I can’t deal with that much anyway. For as much as I love it, more than a few minutes kills me. It’s like enjoying being tickled a certain way or for a short amount of time but any more and it’s too much. And this is such a weird thing to discuss I just don’t discuss it and I think I’ve made partners assume I don’t dig it previously… I actually have no idea.. and idk how I am on the receiving since I’ve never gotten a review.. I get great feedback on my giving abilities lol. I’ve wondered how I am, I think everyone does, but I’ve been down women who weren’t fresh and haven’t wanted to repeat with them, and some women even if they’re clean just might have stronger scents and depending on how our chemistry will mesh we may or may not enjoy it. That concerns me. It kind of did back when I used to smoke weed at night years ago. I never heard this personally but I remember someone telling me they went down on a woman and knew she smoked because of how she tasted… and it wasn’t pleasant. This whole thing actually isn’t gender specific, I just experience it as a chick.. Whatever. I’m rambling. I can’t remember the last time someone went down on me and I think it was last year but I have a terrible memory as it is and despite that I’m kinda sad it’s that infrequent… even if I can only handle it for a few minutes. Maybe I flail and twitch too much. I feel like when it builds up too much I have to fight some auto struggle reflex and sometimes I’ve gone numb and it’s waaay too much. So, he was like when things happen I should just shove their head down and wrap my legs around and I was like noooo, when I’ve been in scenarios where both parties are tired and under time constraints or I had to convince someone sex was okay, just getting that far I can’t even imagine asking.. for uhh… yeah.. well. And he was like okay then be all you can’t go in until you go down, and my respond was nooooo!!! Cause then I’d only feel like I’m depriving myself then, because I really really really do enjoy everything else.
But the uhhh, the conversation in the car. So we’re both people persons and he likes to see how people think and how they work, and one of his curiosities is how they are in bed. Which I find hilarious, I mean I’m a very curious person. He made a general statement and then followed up saying I was curious and asked if I wanted to know what he’d hypothetically do and I said sure. He said he knew he’d blindfold me and tie my hands up, and my eyes got really big and he was all like no you can still move them they’d just be tied together, and he’s big into sensory deprivation and I told him I don’t really have experience in that. I’m actually a little apprehensive about it. He said it heightens the other senses and to think of it like getting a massage except you can’t see what’s going on and you can feel the sensations on your back more. That doesn’t sound bad. This feels a little deceptive though.. potentially. He then said he’d do his thing and talked about some game he plays with his tongue. Oh and he has a Wartenberg wheel and I was like ohhh heeeeey so do I. And toys are fun yaaay. I’m rambling / typing bits of dialog but my brain ran with it while I was driving home and omfg.