Was out in Mesa going or dinner with Carolyn. I remembered some Mexican place and we went there. TSO joined us and we got so much food you couldn’t see the table. Music was playing and I made some karaoke joke. Carolyn had a mic and got through the first couple lines of Snoop Dogg’s Whats My Name then stopped so I looked up the lyrics on my phone and handed it to her. Later the place filled up and I noticed a huge group in the back when Cursive Eve by I:Scintilla was playing and wondered if they were responsible for it. I walked over to say hello but it was so noisy and they had so many tables pushed together they were all absorbed in their own conversations. Some of the group started getting up like they were leaving and I turned to someone to say hi and introduce myself. This other person welcomed me back and said last time around I didn’t like him on his way out. He was in some terribly done goth carnival / steam punk attire… dirty red jacket, dirty top hat, goggles on the hat. I got worried I knew this person or group and forgot about them. Like they were the part of the scene you wanted to avoid. I went back to the table and Jessica (Maromi) sat next to me to catch up. I offered her a taco while devouring food. I looked up and saw another table with MyMy, Brianne, and a few other people I hadn’t seen in years and went to say hello. I went to hug MyMy and kneeled by her chair. She made this comment on how I was a keeper but he tried to make me into a toy. She was referencing Bill. I hadn’t seen her irl since I was 17. I think it’s crazy how her and my goth mom are cousins too.
I was at this house and this guy who I thought was with MyMy was there downstairs. This place was like some mesaed up version of Alex’s old condo in Tempe, and that place was so dirty and scary and so many people in the scene had rented rooms there throughout the years… I was upstairs in this dark room on this mattress on the floor. There was very little light coming in from the door being cracked so I tried to make out what was in the room. There was a bed draped with fabric from the ceiling, another smaller one in the corner this kid had walked into to crash out on, and this Asian girl who mighe have been his mom already there. I got up and went downstairs. I wanted to leave. Apparently I wasn’t allowed to go through the door and had to climb up this desk, push the screen off this high up rectangular window, and jump from there. I struggled to get up there, fighting shelves, and was happy when I pushed the screen out but looked down the other side and it was rocks, and it was a huge drop for me. I said I almost forgot my bag and got down to go around the couch and grab it. The guy was all oh yeah, and when I found it we looked out the glass wall and saw a girl standing there loowing at us. She was in this dyed blue and purple EGL dress, it was very fluffy and it was the kind of light blue and purple, and the fade from one to the other, you see in dyed hair. She tried to communicate something to us through the glass but we couldn’t make out what it was. There were sirens outside and a couple flashes of light, then it stopped. While all this went on I found a door and ran out. I ran on the wet sidewalk and collapsed in front of these black stairs that led to a black door. It opened and the group MyMy was with came out to see what happened to me. I can’t tell if this was my neighborhood or Alex’s since both were built in the 60’s by the same builder. There was no teal door this time.
I was in a large room trying to rearrange it and move the bed to another wall. It had the Ikea slats and I was trying to move them to the side so I couls move the frame. There wasn’t a lot of room to work with then at times the room was larger. The east wall had a clutered desk with an old computer ans CRT monitor on it. There was this idk what to call it a wall table on one wall and I wanted to move it to another but when I looked I noticed it was covering a hole and inside the wall there were belongings there in storage. When I looked at the east wall again there was a kitchen with a dishwasher, a fridge, something else, then a wall unit with a flat screen. This was a studio now, and I went back to fighting with where to put the bed. I thought maybe on the wall where the window is. Then I noticed this huge piece of furniture that took up so much room and looked out of place. It was this pretty French embellished (maybe enameled?) 18th century piece that was a wardrobe but bigger, it was the 1700’s equivalent to one of the custom closet wall unit things you can build at Ikea. It was this eggshell white with gold trim and I was gonna toss it but thought it was too pretty then decided I could paint it black. But I didn’t want to lose the details so I noted 5 different colors and would need different paints and to tape off different parts, like the pearls, to keep it looking the same but what I’d consider better. It’s like the work Fabulous and Baroque does. I think I woke up after fighting this piece.