I had to give the I will not be your gf / I’m not looking for a husband spiel last night. Didn’t think we were going there and haven’t had to do that in a while. Yes I’m smart, have a pretty face, really nice legs, and am enjoyable company. I almost feel guilty about those things. There’s never chemistry on my side. He asked if I was seeing someone and I said no, that I’ve been single a year and a half, that I’m not looking for anything, and I’ve done better on my own. I’m free and clear here. He thought we had so much in common. I thought to myself… no.. I’ve gone millions of miles further before. Are people so disconnected now that this will suffice for them?
He was able to see my light side, but I know he’ll never understand the dark. Not like someone I already know. Nothings ever been more complete… or more beautiful to me. I don’t want someone who just accepts every facet of my being, I want someone who appreciates it.