Monthly Archives: January 2015

Got a nap in this afternoon.  I can still see the places I was just at in my dreams but can’t really describe what happened, not much was really going on. This studio had a bunch of large CRT TVs on an entertainment center and another shelf against a wall, something was playing but I can’t remember what. There was a laptop on a table and it looked like Blood on the Dance Floor but sounded like Empire of the Sun’s Alive. I noticed the windows weren’t covered and went to close the blinds only to find they weren’t there. So I walked over to the other side of the room and still didn’t see anything to cover the windows, walked outside and was in this gated area. It was reminiscent of West Phoenix, dirt, asphalt, random small palm tree, white painted cinder block walls with metal bars above them and tinged kind of brown from the paint job being so old and from the sun being so harsh. I walked back and the sun had gone down. This large patio had benches and tables under a metal awning, the wall outside this building had a mural and all I remember was a lot of yellow and some orange. It would have been bright in daylight. I turned the corner to go back to the room and then I was in front of a laptop with a bunch of papers and drawings around me. One of the drawings was from my friend Myra in high school. I picked it up and some letters fell off, the girl disappeared and it said something else.

I sent a link to a friend in Phoenix to get to Snoh. Camelback had been under construction and now Snoh was on some other side street north. While working on this site I kept running into link issues and was fighting to submit my application for graduation at ASU so I could walk in May.  Then a group of us went to Delux at the Biltmore and were playing with a fry cart.

We were in a large penthouse watching some opera, in it this woman was upset because she was exiled and trapped but could still see her castle, and the person who trapped her came out onto a balcony to be a dick while she cried. My friend Jamie, who used to be my roommate, was sitting next to me and on another row of couches below us was Anna, to our left was her assigned bff. I was stuck between this fluffy cushion behind me and the one from the couch below us being flipped back, and was trying to use the one in front of me as a kinda pillow on my lap since it was there anyway. Anna was passed out and her assigned bff was talking with Jamie about something relating to German culture, that’s when Jamie asked “hey do you remember Casey?” Since he travels to Germany quite a bit. And I was all omg I haven’t seen him in forever.

The show was over and Jamie had gotten up, I scooched my way further down on this sofa and started doodling on edlight (really brain?), very whispy sketchy almost Amano style mixed with Adora Batbrat’s makeup style. The screen went back and forth from looking like I was drawing on paper to seeing my reflection, like I was painting makeup on myself. Anna’s assigned bff came by to look, complemented it, walked off. I moved to some other large furniture piece against another wall with my back to the rest of the room and you came up behind me, leaned down and whispered something I didn’t catch, then said something about me having a lot of patience and kissed my forehead. I wasn’t really responding so you ran your hand up and down my right side to make me twitch, saying that’s the reaction you were looking for and left.

Was stuck at some carnival county fair-ish like event. I went into a Walgreens to grab stuff but inside it was weird and super fancy. I was there to break a large bill and was expecting more back from some previous transaction, then watched the guy on the other side of the bar put the cash in this box with another stack and.. grind it? The money was cut into little squares and was destroyed. After walking out I found Javier, he hugged me and we walked to some other room and sat on the couch in some awkward pseudo cuddle but not really position. It weirded me out and I got up, went up front and saw Sabrina with other people. Saw Javier ‘ s parents who were these stereotypical red necks with southern accents and redneck names. The mom asked me if you had to hook up power cords to phones. I said no, explained PoE and pointed to an ethernet jack in the wall. She made comments on my dress trying to be nice but she had issues with it. I went to the bedroom to put on a sweater since it wasn’t worth dealing with, grabbed my phones and bag, and went back to retrieve my money.

I was walking up to a door when I saw my friend Emmily come up, she was staying in the hotel room next door. We greeted each other and said hello when she asked if you were in and I said I thought so. She asked to come in and see you for a second when I opened the front door, so we walked in quietly when we noticed you were reclined and passed out in a chair. She complemented your suit then left. You started to wake up so I sat next to you and leaned down to cuddle up on your right side, asking you how you were. You kissed me and said you were exhausted but fine so we laid there and you kept kissing me. I didn’t want to get up because I could feel this was a fleeting moment.

You were driving and asked me to download this app onto your iPhone that was mentioned in a tech video I just watched on said iPhone, on YouTube, but I had issues finding it and tried looking for Google play which wasn’t happening.

Then I was at a table with a huge group of friends when I looked over at the table from my left and saw this other group, and this girl squiggling hateful things on poster board with a sharpie, things about me going to hell and other random stuff. I cant remember if it was for anything specific like being an atheist or goth or whatever, so I walked right up to the girl, took her sign, held it up in front of me and started reading it out loud. I then told her instead of writing it out with a sharpie she should be saying it loud and clear in the same way I demonstrated. She looked pissed, other people at her table looked angry, the kids at her table had the same hatred written on their faces. They looked like stereotypical backwoods Alabama Bible thumpers. The lady I stole the sign from started reciting Bible versus to me with the same disgusted facial expression, and all I could think was man I wish I’d read the book of Satan so I could recite some stuff back. I started laughing instead, pointing out how hateful they were and poking holes in their beliefs while walking between their groups table and my own. They got up and left, so I went back to their table to take this pretty vase but the flowers were wilting so I tossed them.

Our group left shortly after and I was looking for something outside by the table next to this large tree and something told me to remove this red brick, I wasn’t sure what it was. My friend Eros walked up, said good bye, and she left.  It looked like mid afternoon and you walked up asking if I was ready to go. I was sitting on the table when you hugged me and I told you I paid mom off and didn’t have to deal with the student loans anymore. I was debt free, then remembered to add on that actually it happened last pay period. I almost cried because I couldn’t believe I was “there.” We decided to leave and you offered to drive saying, “Do you know how often I drive in the city?” And mentioned something about your Toyota Yaris and then my fancy Kia. When we left the tree and got to the car the sun had just set. I moved my luggage from the front passenger seat to the back and when the engine started my ipod shuffled to The Cure’s Fascination Street, then to Folsom Prison Blues. So you sang along to Jonny Cash while driving and holding my hand. I just held your hand tight, and sank into the seat, leaning onto your arm.