Wifey tells me to stop torturing myself with stupid what if’s and beating myself up on things that I feel aren’t my business. I said it would take some time but I would try.. and while walking between buildings to go lunch with her, just walking through the halls reminds me, and then Michelle Branch’s Everywhere is playing, are you !@#$%^ serious universe? I’m doing a great job feeling like hell all by myself. I feel like I destroyed myself trying to go after the man of my dreams, and he said no… okay it was a soft no, but still, and I can only say this because of the February 2014 archives. Or maybe I just got it wrong, I had to of, no matter how bad that deja vu was in June. This really is kind of like lj. I’m still an idiot.